Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Empty Nest Syndrome

Today is day 1 of 5 with no Miss E:( We were invited to go to the beach with my MIL, SIL, and Memaw, but with Brandon's work schedule and 3 dogs, it was impossible for me to go on short notice. Finding someone to take in the 2 inside dogs is hard and it was too short notice to board them on a "maybe". If we could guarantee that Brandon would be home, it wouldn't have been a big deal. But either you book a room for the pups or not, they don't do "maybe's". Elyse was SO excited, she has been wanting to go back to the beach since we left last year, that it wouldn't have been fair to not let her go. So we dropped her off last night and I cried the whole way home. This is the longest that I have ever been without her and I'm kinda lost to be honest. Brandon is working so I'm by myself for 3 days, then who knows if he will even be home this weekend, so I could be by myself then too. But I know she is going to have so much fun, this kid LOVES her Grammie, Aunt Shell and Memaw(her great grandmother), I'm just sad that I won't be there to see her excitement when she sees the beach again and have those memories. But I also know that it is important for her to have those memories with them. The house just seems so big and empty and quiet without her and I'm just lonely without her.

On a different note, we have been trying to decide what we wanted to do for our vacation this year at the beginning of Sept and we finally got it figured out. Brandon asked me if I wanted to go away for the weekend for an anniversary trip just the 2 of us to Savannah (this is SO unlike Brandon to even think to do something like that) so I jumped on the offer. So Miss E is going to stay with her Grammie for the weekend (2 nights is so much easier than 5) while we do a mini vacation. Then we are going to use the week to fun things with Miss E. Like go to the zoo, aquarium, stone mountain, Acworth Beach, things like that. This way, we don't have to worry about boarding the dogs for 7 nights(which is really expensive). We still get to do fun things as a family and have the time together. We figure Miss E is still young enough that she doesn't care if we go out of town, just as long as we all do things together. Next year is going to be the fun year though, we plan on taking her to Disney next year and I can't wait for that! Everything from the time this vacation is over is going to be about planning for Disney next year:)

Sunday, June 10, 2012

I fell off the wagon this weekend.

Yep. I was doing so good. I haven't eaten fast food or anything "bad" in about 3 weeks. I was doing my elliptical for a min of 40 mins a day. Then this weekend happened. I ate Zaxby's, Little Caesars, Arby's and Chinese. I didn't do my elliptical Fri or Sat. I also drank a Dr Pepper (which if you know me, you know that I NEVER drink soda) and haven't drank any water since Friday. Bad Meagan.

In my defense, Friday is the one day a week that Miss E and I go to lunch and I have my "cheat meal" of the week. This week it was Arby's. We played at the playground for a few hours and did lots of walking in the 6 stores we went to. The reason I didn't do my elliptical is because when we got home, It was 76 in my house (normally it's around 72) and I realized that our AC was BROKEN. It got up to 86 that evening in the house, it felt cooler outside than in my house. It was miserable. So I didn't cook (didn't want to turn the stove on and make more heat) so Chinese it was. I probably would have burned more calories since I was sweating on the elliptical that night, but I was just too hot to care to be honest. 

Saturday my FIL came over to do yard work (still working on getting it ready from the tornado) and I took Miss E to her Grammie's to spend the night. I needed something cheap to feed the rest of us though so Little Caesars it was. $7 for a large pepperoni pizza and bread sticks. Then the rest of the afternoon was spent getting the AC taken care of(which we did thanks to one of our best friends) and the guys working in the yard. Last night we went to Sam's to upgrade our phones (finally!!) bc we had gotten something in the mail saying that we get to upgrade early. We've had our phones for 2 years and all the electronic nuts know that with all the new technology coming out so frequently, that means our phones were terribly outdated. Plus mine had been broken since November, but I didn't want to pay to get the same phone back so I just stuck it out. I was contemplating on getting an Iphone, but my old phone and Tablet is Android(which I LOVE) and I don't use Apple anything so there was just no point, I was just contemplating a change. Plus the new Iphone 5 is coming in September and I didn't want to wait that long. Anyway, we both got new phones and they are awesome. By the time we got all that done is was almost 10 so of course we didn't want to go home to cook, so Zaxby's it was. 

Today I've jumped back on the wagon after weighing myself and realizing I gained a pound back. You may think that a pound isn't a big deal, but when you've been on a strict routine and have been steadily losing, it's really discouraging to gain even a little back. But it's okay, just a minor set back. I went to the grocery store today and got all my healthy stuff for the week so I'm all set. 

I wish I had more friends that lived closer to me that actually enjoyed walking. When it's not rainy, Miss E and I take evening walks around my subdivision(which is full of hills so it's a nice workout when your pushing a stroller). But I live out in the boonies and the friends that do live close don't really care about walking or working out. I need more health conscious friends to be doing this with me, but I'm still doing okay on my own, it would just be nice to have someone to share the journey with and swap stories with and share frustrations with. I'm absolutely addicted to MyFitnessPal and I have a good number of people on there doing it with me, but it would be nice to have someone IRL doing it as well. 

The good news is I'm 18lbs down, but I still have a ways to go. It really does get easier over time. The first 2 weeks are the hardest, then after that it's just habit.