Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mother's Day

Today is May is also Mother's Day. Today is a bittersweet day for me. Three years ago on Mother's Day we announced to the family that we were having a baby. Today she is a beautiful 28 month old. On May 13th last year (it was Friday the 13th) I found out that I had lost a pregnancy 24 hours after finding out that I was pregnant. So today I should have a 28 month old and a 4 month old. But it just wasn't God's plan for us to be a family of 4 just yet.

Today was a good day. We all slept til 10 this morning (2nd day in a row that I got to sleep in!). Then we had breakfast and relaxed for a bit. Brandon then gave me my cards and said that I had an option. He had been looking at cameras for me and had gotten burned twice trying to get me one. So then he started looking at tablets and was unsure because I had never shown any interest in one. Truth is, I had never thought of getting one since I have a laptop and a smart phone. Since he had gotten burned on the camera deals he said that either I could take the money and put it up and it could go towards a camera once we found the right one OR we could go tablet shopping today. Well since anytime we put money up for something else, it always gets spent before on other things so I decided that we could go looking at tablets. Long story short, I am now the proud owner of a pretty awesome tablet. I like it much better than my phone(which is a pos) and my laptop(has an incredibly short battery life and has somehow reset itself to where it won't open my preferred browser no matter what I do). My husband is now playing deer hunter on my new tablet while I am blogging on my laptop:)

We went and had lunch with the family and gave Grammy and Memaw their gifts(homemade from Miss E of course). Miss E then decided that she wanted to go with them to look at a house that Michelle is looking to put an offer in on, so that is when Brandon and I took the opportunity to go shopping for my tablet. She wound up eating dinner with them so we went and ate the 2 of us before getting her back. She didn't get a nap so she was kinda cranky, but went right to sleep 30 minutes before her usual nap time.

Before I was a mom I hated Mother's Day to be quite honest. I haven't had a mom in many years to celebrate and pamper on Mother's Day. This day was just always a reminder of what I don't have. But now that I have Miss E, it is different. I'd be lying if I said I don't have hurt feelings and anger, but she has made me so much more. I love being a mother more than I ever thought I would. I can't put into words how much I love my child and my husband for giving me this precious gift. Even though I don't have my own flesh & blood mother (or adopted), I have a mother in law that I think of as a mother. She has been more of a mother to me than my adopted and biological mother ever were. I really believe that she thinks of me as a daughter and not just her son's wife. We have an excellent relationship and I am incredibly lucky to have her. She has been there for me for the better part of a decade and I can't ever thank her enough for all that she has done for me. She is such an amazing example of hoe to be a mother and how to live life. I don't think she will ever realize how much she has influenced my life and made me a better person. 

I am a very lucky woman. When times were really bad, when my biological mother was getting pulled out of the house by cops at 2am, when my adopted mother was telling me that I was nothing and would never be anything, I would pray that one day I would have better. That I would have a family that was full of love. I would pray that even though things seemed hopeless at the time, that God had a bigger plan for me and that one day everything would be okay. 

I am so happy to say that today, everything is okay:)

Happy Mother's Day everyone!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012


Our internet was out for about a week because the phone line got dug up during yard work, so that is why I have been MIA. But I do have a lot to update!

Brandon was in Texas all of last week for school. He finally got a promotion(and a raise!). While he was gone, my wisdom tooth decided to try to make an appearance. My right bottom one started to come through and got stuck, which created a huge hole in my gum which got severely infected. It started on Monday and by the time I went to the dentist on Wednesday, my gum was infected all the way to my front teeth. Luckily, they took one look and decided not to touch or do anything since I was in so much pain. They just did x-rays and made the appt to get them removed. They said they would have taken them that day if I didn't have the infection. I've been on antibiotics and pain meds and am feeling a lot better. I'm just dealing with the wisdom tooth pain now, which I can deal with.

Brandon got home on Friday and we all went to dinner and did some shopping. I threw a baby shower for my best friend Angela on Saturday. This was the first shower I had ever thrown, but it was stress free and very easy. I had 2 people helping and everything was just perfect. I had a very specific vision in my head and it all came together beautifully. Everyone had a great time and it was so good to catch up with old friends.

Later that night, Ang sent me a text saying that her water had broken and they were on the way to the hospital. She was 32 weeks 2 days. She has been in the hospital since and they took the baby tonight. Little Dylan was born perfectly healthy and extremely handsome=) He is in the NICU but hopefully he won't have to stay for too terribly long. I am going up there in the morning and I can't wait to meet this little boy that I love so much already!

Miss E had her last dance class tonight. She has her very first recital on Saturday and she is pretty excited about it. I don't know how she is going to do though, she has never been on a stage in front of so many people before. She always does great in the classes, but this is going to be a huge difference. She has a rehearsal on Friday and hopefully she will get adjusted to the stage then. Her dance school just announced this week that they are closing, so I'm sad about that and am looking into dance schools for next year. She is going to do tumbling over the summer, her dance teacher teaches it, so that will give her something to do so maybe she won't miss dance so much.

I think I pretty much covered everything that has been going on=)